Change..oh how i hate it!!

So I know that change is the one thing in life that you can count on. Blah, blah, blah! You'd think that after all the changes that I've seen in my life, I'd be better prepared to handle life's changes. But alas, after 10 moves, 7 schools, 2 children, several deaths, and several births I am no better prepared than when I began this journey. Actually, I hate change! I crave the mundane, predictability of my life. Many of you know what happens to me when things do not go as planned or when, heaven forbid, there is no actual plan!! I am a mess. On some rare occasions I stand taller and repeat my mantra that has carried me through for years..."I am safe, I am calm, I can handle this." With this coming year, my ability to adapt will be tested over and over!

And so it began...This weekend my principal called me to let me know that I would be let go at the end of the year due to budget cuts. We are a very small school and he's having to cut $215k from his budget!!! I'm not surprised but was shell shocked to say the least. I was stopped dead in my tracks. We're trying to buy a house, we're trying to have another baby!!! Doesn't the economy know this about me and MY plans???? So after several phone calls to and from loved ones, we will march on. Without a house of our own and without the next addition to our family...for now.

For this coming year, I have resolved to react calmly in all situations. I am trying to be patient. I am trying to stay positive. I am trying to stay healthy and not allow the stress of change to dominate me. Help me...